I believe in you so much, I would die from the words that you say

07:48 pm - Can't wait till the holidays

So i havent written in here for awhile. The wedding was cute... not fun at first bc i was by myself but it got much better as the night went on.

This past weekend went to AC for Zindas birthday. That was fun too, but it sucked bc i didnt bring my bathing suit. That hot one piece in the store seemed mighty temting...haha

Didnt win anything but i still had a fun time.

Can't wait till this weekend. Got paid and I'm going shoppping. Buy some cute sweaters now that i CAN wear sweaters and look oh so adorable.

What else in new?? Nothing working my ass off....... why do i have to work 8 to 6 everyday............. i was really pissed off at the end of the day today

But i am actually going to go and watch the oc now

Current Mood: okay

06:44 pm - Why am i so sad

Life goes by so quickly..   Think about it.  Yesturday felt like 7th grade.  Going to a new school ( for me) and leaving all your friends behind.  9th grade felt like 2 minutes ago. going into the "big" school, not knowing what to do or where to go.

Felt like we were never going to graduate, but we did.... and its already been how long?  Doesnt seem like it. 

We are always wishing that we are older.... why?  We will be there in no time, no time at all..

Like me... i wish that i was older, married, and have kids.. Well not really wishing but.. you know what i mean.  My life, i dont know about you, is getting married and having kids.  Kids are wonderful and i cant wait to have some of my own... but just not right now, i can picture me with kids  not at my age.

I guess bc i know some many people that are getting married. That i hope when i am that age i am doing the same thing.  Getting my new house built and getting married.

I dont see myself getting married not... but in 2 years than maybe.....Lizz is getting married in like 2 weeks, well less now..  and steve is getting married on friday..... friday.... wow......

I am in a strange mood...... dont ask me why.... i dont know

Why do i get this feeling in my stomach that i am going to lose the person i love...... we are great together and we are having so much fun.... but the fear of getting a new job and meeting new people frightens me.... i just think that he is going to find someone better than me, bc there is so many people out there better than me. He deserves someone smarter, who has goals in thier life, went t o college, has money, has the whole world in the palm of thier hand.  Not someone who depends on them for everything.  Maybe i am scared bc i know that i am not good enough for him. I love him so much and i cant bare to think of those things.

What should i do.  How do i make this feeling go away?

Current Mood: satisfied

10:17 pm - I am so in love

I am just sitting here, missing you.  Even though i saw you for like 6 days in a row... and i am going to see you tomorrow after work.  It's just wierd sitting here watching tv without you....

I hope that you are having fun, and i hope that you win....

I had a lot of fun yesturday, not going to work, looking for apartments................. it was a blast......

I also can't wait to go to steve's wedding and dance with you all night......

I Love you sooooooo much

                                    Haha us dancing at steve's wedding........i thought that it was funny

Congratulations Schmeg!!!!! i am sooo happy for you....you are so cute.... i hope thats its a girl!!!!     See you soon... either this week or next.............. depending on work.... i love you and miss you

  Schmeg... this is me......... hahhahhahha

  Happy Halloween everyone............... i am not even in the halloween spirit..... hahaha i am actually in the christmas music.......................... listening to christmas music at work is the best... especially hanson christmas.....lol

I love you so much babe..... see you tomorrow and talk to you later

Current Mood: lonely

09:21 pm - Where the hell did the weekend go??

I can't believe the weekend is over. It feels like friday was just ..... today......  Didnt do much this weekend. Friday ate dinner with pete.

Saturday... dear god.... Babysat.. dont get me wrong i love those kids to death...... they are like my own.. but getting there was a disaster..... Since it was pouring the one road was closed so i thought it would be smart to turn on some road.... and than some other road.. and then some other road............................. I ended up on some dirt road (which was mud at the time) and like 5 farms around me............................ I finally found a normal road and some how found my way there............... i really have no idea how i even found their house.......... and i was only 15 min late...hahhahhahha

Today went quick...................... maybe its bc me and pete stayed up to like 4 in the morning and slept in...................... My babys cousin baptism was today.... he is the cutest.....

Peter i hope that everything goes well with your new job and i cant wait to move!!!!!!!!!

So...... Mikes birthday is soon and i think that we are going to stay at the borgata again...... should be tons of fun but pete is going to play poker for like 4 hours...... what the hell.......... oh well........ slot machines here i come

I have freaking training tomorrow in exton................ which means i have to get up way earlier...... and right now i am not the least bit tired.........................

Can't wait till next weekend......................... Saturday Pete and i are going to the outlets in lancaster and than going to a hounted hayride, hanuted house, hanted maze..... and more............................ It is going to be a blast....

October 22.. Fall festival at work....... you should all come.....

October 28th steves wedding...... and the 29th HALLOWEEN party!!!!! that should be an awesome weekend!!

Alrighty then i am going to go play with cali!!!  Have a wonderful night and work week

I am so proud of you!!

I love you!

Current Mood: happy

12:02 pm - hmmmmm

It is soo gross outside. .... I get to babysit my fav kids today. Dalton and Miranda... I love them soo much.

I just dont understand some people. Why bother.. i dont know..... it really is just a waste of time.

Work is going ok... a lil stressful this week but i like being head teacher in the room, even though its alot of paper work.....

Can't wait to see peter tonight!!!!!!!!

And i also cant wait till my bday when we go to las vegas.........

Steves wedding is on the 28th so tommorrow i am going to the mall to see if i can find something cute to wear........  now that i fit into everything better...lol....

Well nothing really else to say. I had the time to write in here but now it os just kinda boring

Current Mood: happy

03:26 pm

Once again i havent wriiten in this damn thing in sooo long........ well got my surgery........ i am happy as can be.........

I am the lead teacher in my room now............... so much work to do... such little time

Yesturday peter and i went to steve and ann maries brand new house and i have to admit... i was a little jealous...... i am sooo happy for them though..... i just cant wait till all that happens to me.... getting married and buying a brand new house......... i cant wait to move in and all that fun stuff......

Went to Atlantic city for our 4 years...... it was such a blast. stayed at the borgata..... it was sooo beautiful.........i played the slots and won some gooood money....yay me!!!!

nothing else to really say.... its kinda boring writting in this thing.............

well it looks like i am out...

Crystal i love you!!!!!!

Peter I love you sooooooo much!!!!!!

05:56 pm - hmmmmm

Wow 2 days in a row... i think that is a new record.

Today was very crazy at work. Sometimes i just cant take it......... i just want to scream but then you look at Dalton and you cant help but smile............... he is the cuteset thing in the world... i hope my boy looks like him.... his sister miranda is the cutest thing too................... cant wait to babysit them soon........

My hours at work are getting changed, starting tomorrow. i will be working 830 to 530. i am glad bc i get to sleep in at least instead of working 745 to 530 6.......

nothing really to say............. oh yea some people are pathetic....... haha they make me laugh soo hard...... but i guess you have to love people like that... it makes you thank the lord that your not like that............... ok now i really dont have anything to say...... but.. peter i will see you soon!!!!

Love you

Laura

Current Mood: bouncy

05:52 pm - Everything is going great!!!!!

Once again i havent written in this thing for sooo long

There is sooo much stuff that is new  it will take forever to write it all down

Peters birthday just past so now he is the BIG 24.  Bruce and Kristin got engaged so congrats!!

Less than a month till Me and Peter go on vacation.... I sooo cant wait................ South Carolina her we come!!!

Then when we come back from vacation....... i get my surgery.. i cant wait.... a lil more than a month....... they are going to be smaller....... August 11 i go.......... i am very very very excited...

Over the weekend we went to live 8.. it was fun but too many people. I am glad that we got a hotel.... i had a blast......

I dont know soo much going on...

I am starting back in school in sep. for nursing.. and i am becoming a nurses aid.... which means i am going to have to quit mulberyy........ but i guess that is ok because some of those kids are getting to me.... but i know that i am going to miss them sooo  much!!! i know that i will still prob babysit them here and there but still....

Well i am getting hungery so i am going to eat and play with the puppy........ i love Kalie allie soooo much, she is the cutest but i have to say not as cute and peter....

Peter i love you!!!!!!

Everything is just wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Summer is sooo much fun...... love you

Current Mood: loved

06:35 pm - Theres a ni**** outside and his dick is kinda white....

The night is very young. Tonight is going to be a blast.......

On sunday i had a rough day, let me tell you......... Sunday night was a blast....... Katie thank you for making me sooooo much better and making me go out and thanks for making me laugh.  Katie your my girl and i love you. it doesnt feel like we didnt talk to eachother for those years....... i missed ya girl.. i love you soo much...... and i love the baby if course!!!!!!!

So anyways sunday...... katie, tom, billie and i went to the bar.......i got really drunk..............hahaha i got soo drunk that i was sick in the morning and called out.... so maybe tonight will be like that................................. me, katie, robyn, tom, billie, jimmy and possible ames p are going to the bar tonight!!!

Katie i hope that our bill is the same...............hahaha $2.40 hahaha with all that we drank......damn its good to know people.... and right about now i can go for a sex on the beach or sewdish fish shots...............

Peter i hope that you have fun with your friends tonight and i will see you prob at like 2 or 230 tonight.... i love you

Ames i am happy that you are coming home.................time to PARTY!!!!

Bye...........

Current Mood: amused

11:46 am - April showers bring may flowers.....

Ahh well it is saturday and tomorrow is the March of dimes walk.... i hope that it doesnt rain...

Pete got his surgery done and he is hurting alot..... i've been being the cute nurse for acouple of days.... even though his mom is the real nurse... i have benn taking good care of him...... i slept over there last night and i am going to his house soon to make sure that he is ok....... he feels really shity and i feel so bad for him..... all i want is for him to get better and heal properly

I wonder how i am going to feel after i get my surgery done..

I bought peter a cute doctors bear.. haha you have to see it

well i guess that i should get going...... there is some stuff that i need to do....like   gooooo tanning

Current Mood: cold

02:30 pm - Excuse me??

Well everything is going good.............

I am going to get a NEW car........ well hopefully... if not then thats ok to....... but my parents said that i can get a convertible... so the search is on.......................... when i am older i am going to have at bmw conv. but for now i want a mitsubshi eclipse spyder gt.

black...  at that...

So i found katie if you didnt know.... oh how i missed her.. we have been hanging out alot.............. its like best friends all over again....

i am hopefully getting surgery  soon............... and i joined the gym so losing like 5 or 10 pounds is getting closer...

and i am getting tanner by the day....(hint... i joined hollywood tans)

well i am going to go i guess... havent written in here in awhile. there is much to say but not much time...

now it is time to do some  shopping

i love you

Laura

kiss mmeeee...................................MY FAV. SONG..... i am in love with this song

Current Mood: happy

08:02 pm - What a GREAT sex weekend

The weekend went fast... but all in all it was a good one. Yesturday outside was so crappy and i though that it was going to ruin the whole day but the rain could never ruin a day when i am hanging out with my pweta. Today was kinda boring nothing really to do but we made it interesting. I got contacts today... i was excited. getting closer to my goal. now i need to lose like 10 pounds and get the surgury and i will be one happy girl.

So i think that i want it to be offical. hopefully this time next year... well like june i will be getting ready to move to cali. we were looking at places to live and we found the area we want to live, at least. I had some doubts that it was going to be to soon but now.... i am positive that it isnt. Just need to get some things done first.

This week is going to be busy. Monday i have work and then a meeting at 6. tuesday and wednesday i am working and then going to the gym. thursday i dont know maybe playing poker with the boys.. and friday the weekend so that means that i am hanging out with my cuddle buddy.

So i think that i changed my mind of what i want to go to school for. I still want to be a kindergarten teacher. Just helping kids learn and grow...........

  but i think i do actually want to be a nurse.... like a childrens nurse...... i can still help them but in a different way. i have to decide if i am going to start classes in the summer. i need to decide quickly. but then that means that maybe i cant waor as much... and i need the money... but i guess that i just have to figure it out for myself.............

Yesturday i saw katie at target............. it felt like i havent seen her in awhile..... the weird part about that is i just hung out with her and matt the other day..................

Oh man............................ and the week starts......

ok i am going to go and call me baby to say good night and read someof "the wedding"

Peace*

Current Mood: satisfied

10:19 pm - Wow speaking of

OLD FRIENDS

i JUST talked to my long long best friend............. BUNT!!!!!.......

oh how i miss her .............. i love her soo much too!!!!!

Bunt, it was so nice talking to you..... i will talk to  you again tomorrow and i am excited to come and see you!!!!!!

09:41 pm - Oh god get a life

Ahh what a wierd and strange night. Work was actually ok today, nah i am kidding i like my job very much, just not when i am there till 545 everyday when i am supposed to be there til 445.....

So hopefully this time next year i will be in california, away from all the drama at work, home and everywhere else in the world.

I just want to move on from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE that has caused negativity in my life. I want to start out somewhere new and fresh......and get away from snobs. And i am thinking that the PERFECT place to start that is in cali.

Isnt it wierd how you change. the way you think... just everything........ How one day you are one way and the next day you arent. How at one point in your life you would think that you would never want it to be different. the way it was was the way that you wanted it.  Didnt want anything to change. you wanted to know your friends for tthe rest of your life and didnt think that you could breathe without them

Well then you grow up and realize that WOW you can breathe without them. All their words dont mean that much to you anymore....... and think to yourself that through all the years that you known them you were really only friends at "one time period". And that was basically in your younger years in high school. like 9th grade..............

I am sitting here and wondering what all my old friends are doing........... Like Katie.     Katie was my best friend in the entire world. Alot of people didnt  like her but and a lot of people didnt like me.. but we were always there for eachother. I will never forget those days walking to maple hill and meeting her half way. Sneaking out at her house at night so that we could hang out with christina, tim, and pat more.......sneaking tom in.. while her mom was sleepping so that they could be together. taking the screens out of her bedroom windows so that we could lean out and talk to people when she was grounded.... haha even though she was grounded she could still hang out with me... that was strange ..........walking around the halls the entire german class and then go back 5 min til class ended and say that our lockers got jammed....sleeping at eacothers house once or twice during the week. which i am surprized that our parents let us since it was school time. Buying the same clothes............"finding money" and go to the mall and spent it all on clothes and candy.

ahhahhaha playing nightmare creatures.... which i still have that........... than meeting nicole and having it just be the 3 of us alllllll the time... going to christinas house and threaten to beat her up.... hahha........

those fun drives to go and buy cigars.........

oh man i can go on and on........ i miss her soooo much though.. and i am sooo happy for her and tom....

my plan is to find her................. i love her

 and  i love you oh so very much!!!!

Current Mood: strange

06:45 pm - "It smells like fresh vagina in here"

I dont want to write my stupid bio for work. They need by tomorrow and i am sitting here wasting time, watching little women with my love one.  I wish that my taxes would get done so that i will have some money. I want to go shopping soooo bad.... and get a facial.  I should be getting bad a decent amount since i had like 4 jobs..................

I am trying to figure out what would be a good time to go on our cruise for our 4 years......hmmmmm.... in august and september is the cheapest but in september it is hurrican season so hmmmmmmm........ this is going to take a while to decide...

Well i think that i am going to go and write and type my awesome bio...



Take care cool cats!!!




Laura
















Happy Birthday Smeg!!!!!!!!!!                                                                March 16th..................

I tried to call you several times but it said something like  "this called can nit be completed as dialed. please hang up and try again"   so i dont know... love ya

Current Mood: cold

11:13 am

Everything is wonderful.... no complaints... Well maybe just one.. i need money, and that damn ticket that i got the other day. But oh well. Today i was up bright and early. 7am. Why? no idea but i wish that i could have slept in later.  

Today me and Mister Pweta are going to see the ring 2. We are going to see it during the day so that maybe it wont be sooo scary. I want to go shopping sp bad but with what money.... No clue.

Joined the gym...... i feel better now.

March Of Dimes
Please help me raise money for the March Of Dimes  Walk America.

Help Save Babies

"Everyday 1 in 8 babies born in the U.S. arrives to soon. Premature birth can haapen to any women and be life Threatening for her baby."

The March of Dimes is a leader and pioneer in the fight to save babies.


I am walking on April 24th.   So if you want to donate any money you have please do. You can donate at www.walkamerica.org/ldragonflies21









Thank you......... Alright i am out to go to the mall.... love ya









Love you Peter





Laura

Current Mood: happy

06:16 pm - And so it is........... just like you said it should be....

Well the weekend went way to fast.. tomorrow is monday already. Nothing has been going on really. I got my hair cute. And oh yea me and Peters 3 and  a half years is on saturday.... the 12th.   I am soooo happy!!!!

I like the new background.. she is cute..... and I LOVE the movie closer.

Ok well i am going to go.. i will update again soon...

At peters house so it is cuddling time



Love you

Laura

08:03 pm - What a wonderful LIFE!!!

ah man...... life has been going by so quickly. well i figured that i am not going to sleep.. instead i am going to get things done, since i havent done much lately since ive been on my death bed... well that is what it feels like anyways. And also back to work tomorrow....YAY!!!

Any who time to update (well kinda)

I changed my picture on the background. I think that i like it.. its hot Jessica Simpson. I wanted the notebook but maybe in a week or 2.

Valentines Day was awesome. I surprised pete with a hotel room flowers and many other things. I didnt do as much as i liked due to money but it was cute and sweet anyways... and it gave me and amy a change to see eachother,.... and i got to give my MATTHEW  a BIG hug and a BIG kiss.... i miss that handsome little man...

Peters brother got engaged! how exciting is that!   I am so happy for them......

Speaking of peter... he is wonderful.. and i am so happy that we are together again.......I love you Peter!!!

He should be calling me anytime now.... GOOD LUCK with your poker game.... i hope that you win

Also speaking of poker... i played the other night... might i add i was horribly sick... felt like i was going to heal over and die......... but I WON!!!!!!! just kidding!! I LLOST!!     but i did stay in longer than pete..... haha

I cant wait till summer.... even though i will be working all the time i plan to go on little vacations........

Me and Pete have to go to south carolina to get our picture taken with the baby lions.... than we are going to california for a week or 2 to look at places ..... see where we want to live........ that should be fun... i want to go on a cruise but i think that we are going to do that for our 4 years........

Anyways i am going to have to go for now but everyone should give me a call and we should hang out soon

Love Ya

Laura

Peter I love you with all my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: sick

06:12 pm - The Eagles Day

Well it is sunday already... the weekend went way to quick.....

Just making a quick update bc that is all i have time for

My life just has been going quick now a days...... the  weeks come and go so fast.. I always feel like i have a million and one things to do..

But i am going to go for now and watch the EAGLES!! i hope that they win....

My new fav song:   Cant take my eyes off of you

My new Fav movie:  Besides the notebook anyways... Closer

Alrighty everyone have a good super bowl

HAPPY FOOTBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: busy

05:41 pm - Everything is going to be ok

Well it is almost firday again.. i havent written in here in awhile. but i am not going to write along one this time.. maybe over the weekend.  My computer is wierd right now so i am on my bros until he comes back and yells at me..

Work is going fine i like it and the kids are really cute....

Ames P i miisss yououououou

I see my old boss and my new job bc his kids go there and yesturday it made me realize that i miss my ashley and katie and fefe and stef...... i havent talked to them in awhile and i dont know why...... i talked to matt the other day... matt is awesome, i heart him and i heart the rest of the gang....

Today was not that excited but i do have a major headache.. so on that note i am going to go

oh yea and P.S.   "I dont know what i am fighting for"

I found my wedding song, hahaha for when ever the hell that will happen, i am  guessing in like  10 years.... but the song is........ oh wait i am not going to say..  i am going to make you wait for 10 years to hear it..

I love me

Current Mood: sad